I really do have a good temper, haven’t always. There was a time in my life when I repaired walls a lot and bandaged my hands. But learned it is just not worth it: either my time nor my energy. But being told, not asked for discussion, that there was going to be a wedding involving… Continue reading Running out of Fuse Quickly
Full blown panic attack. Brain swirling in every direction. What makes you think you are as good as your coworkers? 20 years younger, better trained, more energy, and learns faster! You know they are laughing at you when you ask how to do something they have always known how to do. You are slow, old, lacking… Continue reading Too Late!
We now return you to your regularly scheduled broadcast…. WOW, six months since my last post. Lots have happened and are still happening. Where to start? When you reach the bottom looking up is all you have left. The job I was hoping for in December fell through, really did me under. Didn’t talk about… Continue reading Season 2, the next chapter
Yesterday, was long, ok, but long. Some grocery shopping, watching TV, and helping the ex-GF. We haven’t used a credit card in over a decade but had to yesterday to get food. Hated doing it but we were out. I really hope I get this job! My depression and anxiety go through the roof just… Continue reading Catching up
Can’t focus for some reason today. Spent hours last night trying to track down my dead brothers wife and kids. I need to write this all out and get it on paper. He died the 10th of October in 1990. I was still in the military stationed in Maryland. He lived out in California. Remember… Continue reading Focus
So yesterday I mostly floated through the rest of the day. Feeling good about the interview. Got really emotional last night but it was weird. I felt like crying, actually tried but the tears would not come. Tried music, which always works, but nothing. Sad movies, nothing. This morning was therapy. The therapist is awesome,… Continue reading Morning Therapy
Morning has arrived and my migraine is back in it’s box when I can deal with it. Yay! Wrote the job back to set up the interview. Waiting to hear back, scared out of my mind, and excited. Looked up the person that wrote me, head of HR, she’s is very pretty. I know, but… Continue reading Hump Day